(The loneliness of the) Long Distance Runner

I think I need to connect my life and my self on sports once again. And If I’m really old to collective’s sports (and I still love volleyball) maybe I have some chance on runnin’. The sweat, the perspiration!, the muscular’s pain are still very important things to me. In my family’s history, nobody played music, nobody loved science, nobody gave activit to dramatic art.. just sports. Sometimes I think I miss my chance on sports by my physical and psychological weakness. I could be really good on soccer or volleyball. I hate this feelin’. “If I can’t go out of my room, it’s better if it don’t have a window”. Yesterday I always thought about sports on a professional way. Today I just can think about it like somethin’ I can do just for my physical and psycho health, not for competition anymore. I need moviment.