* about my sexuality * about my sugar' dependence *

PERDRE LA CAPACITÉE DE SENTIR * PERDRE LA CAPACITÉE DE SENTIR * PERDRE LA CAPACITÉE DE SENTIR * A BULLET IN MY FUCKEN MIND * PERDRE LA CAPACITÉE DE SENTIR * yes, it's just like this fucken way. I'm still lookin' for somethin' that, maybe, doesn't exists in this planet. Maybe I really have a sexuality a little bit diferent than others. I would like to feel the sensation that penetration promotes, but not with a boy. And I would like to believe that sex doesn't mean a power' relationship, always. That's why I "waste" time thinkin' about the "sex grrrl's condition"? It's also my condition, even me not bein' a girl. I like the sex sensation, but I'm sure that stupid social means are always contained in everythin' we have now; so that nice feelin' is not alone. We got to think about our lives like somethin' inside a planet Net, I know when I'm sexin' (feelin' somethin' great) some girl are rapped (feelin' somethin' increable bad), because it happens everytime everyplace in a fucken sexist / patriarcal culture. I'm not proud about be human. I'm not proud about be male. My body don't support littles t-shirts (like the A77aque's one) and my mind don't support sexists cultures. PERDRE LA CAPACITÉE DE SENTIR * PERDRE LA CAPACITÉE DE SENTIR * PERDRE LA CAPACITÉE DE SENTIR * A BULLET IN MY FUCKEN MIND * PERDRE LA CAPACITÉE DE SENTIR * like yesterday, today I eat many cappucino's cookies. Like sex, the flavour is great. But flavour is not everythin' in my (our) life (lives). A few years ago, to eat cookies was somethin' that make me strong (keepin' the coldness away) and happy (keepin' my frustrations away). It just doesn't work like that way anymore. A lot of things, in this sense, doesn't work anymore. I woke up this morning without my first congress work, and I just can't stop to think about it, so I feel unhappy today, tryin' to keep up the hope about my feelings tomorrow.

WHAT IS (SO!) OBVIOUS FOR ME, IS (SO!) COMPLEX FOR OTHERS.